Wednesday, November 26, 2008


I didn't think turning 3 years old would also mean an escalation in tantrums. The sweet girl has been having tantrums of sorts lately. Macam-macam. Her curiousity means she wants to grab hold of everything and anything she can. She wants to climb here and there and reach for mommy's bottles of perfume and lotions or the sewing kit or drawer of brooches and pins...things that she shouldn't be playing with, she wants to. She wants to play with daddy's camera and uncle's videocam and open this and that. Fuuhhhhh... very demanding the little girl has become and very testing to her parents. And she knows that when she cries, she will probably get what she wants. At most times, I manage to distract her with something like videos on my handphone or pictures on the PC or switching on channels 61x on the tele. I have been doing my fair share of yelling lately. I don't like it and I'm tired too. And you know me, I'm not really a yeller. Perhaps she is bored with things at home. Perhaps it is time for playschool? I just hope it is a phase she will soon outgrow... Wishful thinking you might say.. she'll probably outgrow it by 16 or 17 perhaps!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008


Remember my dream with Hugh Jackman in it? Well, I can't quite remember what it was all about. But I do remember that I had been browsing the celebrity gossip site OMG that night and Hugh Jackman happened to be one of the celebs I saw on the site. Sent my brain into overdrive I reckon.

Two nights ago, another celeb made a guest appearance in my dream. Phil Keoghan! bestfriends would know that I have an admiration for Phil and that I am a huge Amazing Race fan so having Phil in my dreams would probably be the closest I'd ever get to him. Hehe. Well, in this dream, at first I was just watching the race from afar. I couldn't recognize the teams. But at the end, I actually went to Phil and asked him, 'So Phil, who won?' Hehehe...boleh lagi tanya begitu pulak! Phil, you are most welcomed to appear in my dream anytime you can.. (hehe note to my own self conscious)

I had a bad dream last week, can still remember some of it. But someone once told me that you shouldn't tell people about your bad dreams. Kinda bad luck. So I'll just keep that to me and hope that it just remains that..a dream.

I do have recurring dreams. Not exactly the same thing every time but along the same lines. It's gotten me to think what those dreams could mean. For example, I've had dreams where I would be driving a manual car. With exception to my driving lessons years years back, I have always drove an automatic transmission car. In the dreams, I seem to be slightly panicky but I do the best I can to get the car moving. I think these driving dreams have something to do with the fear of being out of control. Which is one of my main fears in life.

I also have dreams about living or moving to different houses or hotels, sometimes it's even hostels. This one, I think is about wanting and still looking to settle down, wanting a place of my own. Or perhaps, it is due to the fact that I love to travel and still yearn for new adventures and new experiences. When I dream about staying in hostels, sometimes my school friends are there too. And this, I think has to do with the fact that staying in the hostel/boarding school was a significant and probably one of the happier times of my life.

Another dream is where I am trying to say something but my voice can't come out. I've had a few of these where I was trying to address my class but they couldn't hear me or they ignored me. This is not a nice one. Should I assume, it is me wanting some sort of attention? Or it is my fear of not being heard or recognized?

Sometimes if I have a bad dream or a scary dream, I would ask hubby if I mengigau (talk in my sleep) or not. Sometimes after having a good dream, I would wake up and feel really good. Surreal. Bit weird. I try to take all this signals my dreams are telling me, with a pinch of salt. Or sugar. But perhaps they are subtle signs of what I want in my life and what I haven't achieved.

Sweet dreams.

It's Up To Them

Remember I mentioned about those students who submitted assignments that were sebijik like the answer scheme I had? Well, I was all ready to give them just the minimum marks, lower than the lowest marks that the whole class had. And I thought that would be pretty generous already. But then, when I wanted to submit the marks online, I realised that I had to submit marks for each individual question. And there was also a column for comments. If it were just the full marks, then I could just give them the reduced marks as I had planned. But since they wanted marks for each individual question, I didn't want to go and recalculate how many marks for each question. So I just put in the full marks they got. But in the comment section, I wrote long comments for those students about how I felt they did not put in any effort to do the questions themselves, that their answers were an exact copy of the answer scheme and that I felt they shouldn't be given the full marks. So I leave it to them.

Anyway, my friend Has did tell me that she once commented about some students who admitted that their reports were done by other people and the uni didn't seem to care or respond in any way...So I don't know, if they would take action about this or not...I hope they do.

Friday, November 21, 2008


I'm happy the HK boys won - though it would have been better if Ida & Tania did, they were doing so well. Bad decision to go to Singapore instead of Bangkok. I liked the HK boys ever since they did the tattoo fast forward and then when Vince carried 2 big fishies at once! Gruelling race this time around. Shall we start training and preparing to audition for the next one?? Hehe..Ya la, takkan just celebrities saja yang bulih ikut...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I'm Excited About This..

Chocolate orange flavour! What a yummy way to get your daily dose of calcium!

My November Babies

Hubby and Yasmin had their birthdays on the 9th and 16th respectively, one week apart. No big parties, just simple celebrations at home. We couldn't even decide what cake to get, so we ended up buying slices of different types of cakes for both occassions. Hubby's birthday was celebrated with Rina and Josie and their Raja Ema cd surprise. Yasmin's birthday was spent partially at Port Dickson, then in KL and we went straight to Secret Recipe in Warisan Square to buy the cakes after we landed in KKIA (very nice looking new airport, by the way!)

Hubby's birthday. 9th Nov.
Yasmin doesn't have any luka on her forehead, she just liked having the bubu plaster there.

16 Nov 2008. She's 3 years old!
I've been asking her, 'Is Yasmin 1 year old??' and she says 'Noo..'
'Is Yasmin 2 years old?' 'No...'
'Is Yasmin 3 years old??' 'Yessss.... huwwayy!'

Marks or No Marks

I'm currently marking student assignments from o-yu-am. And guess what I found? Some students have answers that are exact copies of the marking scheme I have, provided by the uni. Sebijik. Word by word. Number by number. Equation by equation. Even where they are asked to sketch diagrams, the diagrams are exactly those in the marking scheme, copy and paste saja terus! I talked to Rach and sms-ed Siva, what they thought. Found out that because I allowed them to submit their assignment a week later than when it was due, some students might have gotten access to the marking scheme - I'm not sure or perhaps from tutors at other centres.

Do you think I should give them marks? They have obviously not put in any work or any of their own effort to answer the questions. Should I give just minimum marks, just for submitting? Thing is, I'm thinking if I do give them full marks, they would think that they can get away with it. And what if, my marking is checked? And they saw that I gave full marks for answers that were obviously copied. I know that the others copied from each other too but I don't mind that...satu salah, semua salah. Even down to spelling mistakes! But for those that have exactly the same answers as the marking scheme, that's a different story.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Matt Nathanson's Come On Get Higher

I'm currently in love with this song. It puts me into this dreamy trance. You know..the kind you'd have when you're in love and can't get that person out of your mind.

If I were to write a screenplay, I'd pluck in this song at that scene where the guy and girl have their obligatory unneccesary silly fight. Or, when they have to be apart even though they don't want to be. I love the simplicity and the honesty in the lyrics. Reminds me how love is in the little things that we take for granted. Makes me want to experience that feeling of being in love again.

I like these lines:

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in ..

And this:

I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said ..

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Change Your Corner

So the big news yesterday was that of America's first African American president to be sworn in come January. And all around, people are saying that change has finally arrived to America. Well, it's not just America, change is upon us all.. all the time. Whether we realise it or not. Whether we choose to take notice and take action. Or whether we just choose to remain the same.

Albert Einstein said, 'Change is the only constant'. Everything, everyone, every miniscule being in this universe is constantly changing. And so we try. It may be something as little as trying a new brand of cereal. Or wearing bright pink. Or giving up that unhealthy habit. Or giving up disposables or car pooling to ease mother earth's burden. Whatever it is, I have always, always believed that CHANGE IS GOOD.

And if you're thinking that you are just one person, that you won't be able to make a difference, think of this: Maybe you can't change the whole world, but you can change your corner of it. And when you change your corner, you actually change the world.*

Go on then, change your corner!

* I love this quote. Taken from Toastmaster magazine October 2008. Quoted from Carl Duivenvoorden, Toastmaster, speaker, writer.