Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.
And getting ready to do it all..all over again. Hopefully this time around with much more insight and wisdom, patience and understanding and double the bucket full of love. <3
I was at my parent's yesterday and as we got ready to head out to do some shopping, I grabbed my handbag from the side table without realising that the strap had gotten hold of a vase of ornamental glass flowers on the table. And before I knew it, the whole thing came crashing onto the floor and glass shattered everywhere. It was like I was watching it in slow motion but unable to do anything. Mom was naturally upset. The vase and a few flowers escaped unscathed but the majority of the lot broke into pieces. Dad immediately went to pick up the broom and rubbish collector, beckoning mom to move and beware of the pieces of glass. Mom, upset yelled out, 'Biarlah kaki saya luka! (Just let my feet get cut!)'
What could I say. I mostly felt bad because I didn't really feel bad about the whole thing. I always told mom she had too many things around the house. Too much clutter. There were two vases of flowers on that particular side table. Mom likes to buy stuff. Stuff she doesn't really need or already has. She likes collecting it all. And really, it was an accident. I didn't mean for it to happen. Mom continued to mumble how she wouldn't be able to find those sort of flowers again.
I kept thinking and saying to her, it's just things. And I kept thinking of that last lecture by Randy Pausch, where he spoke about things being just things and how people were more important. Of course, it's easy for me to say and of course, I would probably be more upset if that something were to happen to my own stuff. I try to tell Yasmin this, every time she starts demanding for new toys (even a day after she'd just gotten new ones). I say, it's just a thing. You don't need so many things. But no, she says. She needs it. What if it finishes and we can't find anymore? I want to tell her to not be too materialistic. (I blame the internet - youtube and amazon!).
It's not that I think those flowers of mom's weren't significant for her. Nor do I think that we shouldn't take care of the things that we have. I don't go around breaking and losing things on purpose. We get so upset when we lose or damage these things because we paid money for them in the first place. That was their value. In the end, in one month, one year's time...are those things really going to matter? Mom has a lot of things that I think she doesn't even remember she has. Of course, I do have a lot of things that have sentimental and significant meaning to me. Some toys even from when I was a teeny kid. And it's great being able to pass them on to Yasmin now... for long enough before she gets distracted by something else.
But I still think there's just too many things around. (Remember Wall-E?) If it were up to me, I'd send the bunch for recycling, throw them away or to someone who might want them. It's just things. I'd rather have less of it all...but more meaningful things.
Hands up, who wants to make more money? ME, ME, ME! Chances are you answered yes too, right? What can we do, money makes the world go round and as much as I (used to want to) believe that money doesn't buy happiness, it does buy and pay for a lot of the things you actually need to live. Have you ever heard of this quote - Despite the high cost of living, it remains a popular choice. Yes, the alternative to living is not such a pleasant one you would want to hope for!
And so we work. 9 to 5. We find other ways of making money. Business opportunities here and there. Investments. Anything that can make us that little bit more to support and sustain our daily living or even elevate it so we can afford some little luxuries once in a while.
The general consensus is that you need money to make money in the first place. Financial literacy has become a big area of interest these days. Famous gurus such as Robert Kiyosaki are preaching to us that we need to know more about our finances and take charge, get out of the race rat or be trapped there until you retire. Graduating college and finding a good job is no longer enough these days.
There are a lot of things that one can do actually. The starting point would be to educate ourselves about what we can do and learn from those people who have made it. It is not just about making money and getting rich, it is about gaining your financial freedom and thereafter freedom to do anything and everything else you want to do. For me, it would be an awesome feeling to wake up each morning not having to worry about the bills to pay and being able to decide whatever I want to do and actually do it! You? Click on the link above for more ideas on what you can do. Here's to: More Money, No More Bills, Freedom and Blissful Living!