Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Dear Mom

Hi Mommy,

It's been a while.  Time moves so fast that it's almost mid year now.  A lot of things have happened these past few months. On the 8th March, a plane went missing after taking off from KL en-route to Beijing.  It's been more than 50 days and they still haven't found a trace of the plane and the 239 people on board.  It's such a mystery.  I know you would be sitting in front of the telly following every update of this story.

The kids are growing up beautifully.  Yasmin is in Primary 3, she's improved a lot in school but she still has that naughty, don't-wanna-listen-let-me-be streak.  She plays and teaches Ashraf a lot, which is good and not so good at the same time! Ashraf Zane, he is blooming.  He speaks well now.  Still a lot of baby talk and his own words but once in a while he comes out with some bombastic words and we all wonder, 'Wh-where did you learn that?'  He's a joy. I know you would love seeing him and playing with him and  laughing at this antics.

Naderah is getting married soon, next month actually.  We just received the wedding invitation and wow, it's beautiful and thick!  I think they have all the preparations under way.  Too bad we won't be here at the time of the wedding.  We're going to Singapore for a family getaway.  Well, Rizwan is running in the marathon and we somehow got tagged along.  I'll miss the wedding for sure.  Not many more weddings to go to these days.  Indeed, Naderah's may be the last for now.  I know you would be busy helping them out with the arrangements, voicing out your own thoughts (to me) and sitting proud on the big day as you considered her just like one of your own.  I know they will miss you on that day.

Me? Well, I'm doing good.  I'm keeping busy.  Alhamdulillah, I have had a steady stream of work since last year.  Not so much worries about money and bills.  I know I should be saving more but I remember you always said, 'What's the use of that money if you aren't going to spend it?' What's the  use of working so hard, yeah?  Life is meant to be lived, money is meant to be spent, for the right purposes of course.  I've got a big project coming up, hopefully.  I hope it goes well and I can share it with you soon.

It's been more than a year now.  Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, mommy.  Everything, everywhere is a reminder of you.  I worry that Bapa is all alone.  I break down almost every time I drive home, realizing that you are not there anymore, sitting at your favourite spot.  I miss you, but I know God loves you more.  I pray that you are resting in peace and in God's grace.  I'll talk to you again soon.

Your daughter,